Since Aveline was born, I have found myself spending more and more of my spare time, or time when Novella is sleeping…attached to my phone, even when Ryan is home. What am I doing mindlessly on my phone…Facebook. My heart has been burdened by this, and I was recently reminded of a blog post that I wrote 2 years ago… yes, about 4 months after Novella was born; is it a coincidence that I have just been reminded about this? No, God has his hand in everything. I have lately been very prayerful about things. As you know, Novella is now 2 years old. and let me tell you… she is smart as a whip, and sometimes too smart for her own good, but in the same breath, she is STILL JUST TWO! By golly, two years old is proving to be my least favorite stage of all, but in each challenge blessings always come…but let’s save that for another blog. I want to discuss what God is doing in my heart right now. I have been short tempered and easily frustrated with Novella especially lately. Some of that has to do with her age as I mentioned above, some of it has to do with my own heart and my distractions. I mentioned previously that I had been reminded of a blog that I wrote two years ago, you can find that blog here: The Start To Ending My Idleness (it’s definitely worth the read, or re-read!)

So with that being said, I have assessed some of my own heart, and my own frustrations. More often than not, when I feel short tempered it’s sometimes because Novella is needing attention at a moment when I just cannot give it to her (aka: sister is still an infant and needs a different kind of attention), sometimes my attention (more than I would like to admit) is on my phone…having a mental escape. Now don’t get me wrong, there is nothing wrong with having a mental escape sometimes, especially mommas! However, there is a time and a place, and lately I have been finding my time and place at inappropriate times. When I should be spending time engaging the girls young minds, having real adult conversations with my husband, when I should be spending time with Christ in quiet time. I like to have my phone on me, so that I am always camera ready so I can send a text message of the girls to their grandparents who all live at least 15.5 hours away. I want them to be able to see the girls growing and changing, even when they cannot physically be with us. Now my other dilemma is, I don’t want to get rid of Facebook because being a military family it is a beneficial tool to keep in touch with friends and families. Although I do not utilize Facebook much for posting purposes other than a monthly photo and update on the girls, and sharing my blog posts, I do still enjoy seeing what is going on in others lives.

Now, I come to what I am going to attempt, on trial, to see if it makes a difference in my life, and my families, to see if my frustrations fade and I gain a little more patience with those that I love most on this Earth. So without further ado, I am deleting Facebook from my phone. I can access it from my computer, but I have the computer out much less often. My prayer is that this time and space from Facebook will help me find more time for myself and my family in other ways. More time to blog, read my devotionals, maybe pick up one of my many books I have been putting aside by scrolling through Facebook during my free time. This might not last, it might not be the solution, but it is a start, and right now that is what I need. Oh, and we are also going to start eating more of our meals at the table instead of in front of a movie or TV show all the time. I want us to engage in one another, especially now, as Novella is more interactive, and Ryans winter work schedule will allow for him to be home a few more evenings here and there. Time to grow our family bond, all while allowing Christ to be the center again. A time to refocus and re-energize the Frazier Frontier. Hopefully this means more time blogging here as well! So I am off to delete Facebook from my phone now, wake Novella up from her nap and enjoy the rest of this lovely afternoon with our daughters! Until next time… 🙂 Remember, go read my other blog post about Idleness!